Change happens. There is no way to get around it. Sometimes change is by choice, other times it’s not. Sometimes change is for the better, other times it is not. One thing I am discovering about change is that it is much harder to handle when you’re older. You work diligently to arrive to a certain way of life, to meet goals, to realize dreams and you have the expectation that you are on a course that you can stay on until the end. Your future is sure and you have done everything possible to maintain what you have worked for, when suddenly something unforeseen happens that is beyond your control. I’m going through a huge change in my life that was not welcomed, even though it was necessary.

The book of Job tells us in 1:21 that “the Lord gives and the Lord takes away.” Job is an excellent example of someone that is confronted with sudden change on every level. He has great wealth, great children, great health and a great life, when calamity strikes and he loses everything. He’s not aware that Satan has accused him of only being faithful to God because of the many blessings God has bestowed on Job. God allows the enemy to test him and take everything except Job’s life. Job is devastated with the tragic loss.  His friends give their own thoughts to Job about why these terrible events have taken place and what to make of it. His wife flat out tells him to curse God and die, which Job, being a righteous man, refuses to do. When Job continues to give praise to God even after all he has lost. God restores him and blesses him even more than before.

Thankfully, most of us have never had to go through the devastation that Job went through, but it does remind us of the sovereignty of God, and that every gift and blessing we have is only because of Him. He knows exactly what we need, what we don’t need, and the perfect time of when to receive it, or let it go. For sixteen years I was a teacher to bilingual Kindergarten and Pre-Kindergarten students in the inner city of Houston. It was the toughest and most challenging job that I ever had, and I loved every minute of it. However, the demands of education changed as society, technology and ideology led the way into a new direction. Everything flipped and my greatest strengths in teaching now became my greatest weaknesses. I was forced to part ways with my former employer.

I had planned to eventually retire with this assignment, but I’m still a few years away from qualifying for retirement. I was sure I would have been married by now, but have not yet met the right person. So then, what’s a girl like me supposed to do? I’m supposed to walk by faith and not by sight.  It’s time to trust and not lean on my own understanding, time to listen, time to let God be my provider, my guide and my Heavenly father. I know without a doubt that my earthly dad would have let me move back home and helped me out.  How much more I can believe my Heavenly Father, who created all things and has a good plan for my life, to take care of me. 2nd Corinthians 3:18 says that He transforms us from glory to glory. I can trust that if I keep my eyes on Him and stay in faith, that God has something even greater in store for me.

Ever since I was a teenager, I’ve felt a tug on my heart to a life in ministry. I wasn’t quite sure how, but I thought that I would have a preacher or missionary husband and that I would handle all of the music. Now, all these years later, I’m in a place where I have been forced out of the boat, and now I can either walk on water, find another boat to climb in, or drown. In order to remain on the water, I have to draw out the gifts and talents that God has given me and put them to use. I’m kind of excited and cautious at the same time.  Jesus told Nicodemus in John 3:8 “The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.”  I sense the wind is blowing me in the direction of writing so I’ve decided to publish a book using a collection of my blogs. Stepping out in faith, I published a Kindle ebook that is available on Amazon for $2.99 called Life Kissed By Heaven. To continue stepping out in faith, I’m seeking to get my book published.

Recently, a friend of mine lost a young family member to suicide, and no one knows why.  He was a bright young man and was to enter his senior year in high school this fall.  He had everything to live for, but in a solitary, desperate moment, he came to the wrong conclusion that his life was worthless.  He then imposed a permanent solution to a temporary circumstance.  I want to do all I can to prevent this from ever happening again.  I want the message of Job to be known by all, that difficult seasons are only temporary and that seasons of joy will come once again.  I want the painful lessons that I’ve learned in my own life, along with the increasing knowledge of God’s goodness, to be used to encourage others that feel their lives are hopeless.  In order to raise the funds for a publisher, I’m selling T-Shirts with a Masterpiece Message that everyone has been created and designed by God. I specifically chose orange because it is the color to wear to show support for persecuted Christians. I’m also going to donate 5% of the profits to International Christian Concern which ministers to the persecuted Church all over the world.  I would greatly appreciate your support, but even more importantly, I ask you for your prayers in following God’s will.

He also has a good plan for your life, and I pray that He reveals His will for your life.  If you haven’t yet made Jesus the Lord of your life or need to rededicate your heart to Him, you can click on Make Peace with God, to find out how.

Love and blessings to you all, my friends!

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